From “Sara Smile” to “She’s Gone”:

 After nearly four solid years, the on-again/off-again relationship between Carlos, his daughter and I is finally over. Despite our best efforts, the girl was just not interested in repairing her life. It hurts in that we really worked hard to turn her around. Many a night was spent preaching and speeching and loving and worrying. We struggled but to no avail. She just wasn’t listening. There was a metaphor which came from my Dad long ago when he had made a life-changing decision. He described the decision-making process as someone being warned about going down a dark alley. Most people, sensing the danger will turn back. But for some, the need to press on is instinctual. They go forward not because they know what’s at the end, but despite it. Like Faust, they just want to see for themselves. Well, much to my chagrin.

Where Do We Go From Here?

I can’t say for me, that she’ll be totally missed. I was relieved that she was gone. I felt the energy shift the minute she walked out the door! Lest you think I’m being heartless, anyone’s who’s met her knows that she drives a negative energy that is so all-encompassing, it eats up any other focus. Her ability to play with your emotions, was draining. You spend so much time worrying about what she had or hadn’t done that you scarce have any chance to live your life. There was no use in trying to instill your visions, life experiences, or advice either. So now, toughlove. The one who’s really suffering though all of this is, Carlos. He’s heartbroken over Sara’s decision, but hopes that it will all be for the best.


About Lisa Perez

Lisa M. Perez is a published poet, editor, copywriter, public speaker and artist. The co-creator of the first ever ArtSpace in Jersey City, member of IUOMA (International Union of Mail Artists), and administrator for an online Mail Art group, Lisa supports the arts and advocates for creativity. Her successful, Art Journal and "Notes from my Brain" series are ongoing projects that evolve with the artist. In addition to being an active blogger since 2005, Lisa scripts and edits copy for various online articles and videos. In September 2017, she was a guest-speaker and virtually chaired a YOGA Recovery meeting. In her spare time, Lisa studies, reads, and creates while maintaining a day job in a STEM field and being a full-time fur-mommy to her shih-tzu, Cher.
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